This semester seems to really have been a time of pulling everything together. It truely is the end of an era for me because it has been 6 years since I started a serious career path. It's funny how things seem to be comming together and other issues are resolving themselves.
It's been 6 years since I bagna my interest in hot tub. I researched them and studied them, hell I even built a few. Now I'm actually about to buy, own, and hopefully run a business with them. It's been a dream I've had for so long and it's finally happenning. I tested the tub out yesterday for the first time. I couldn't find anyone in Regina to help me either and it ended up comming down to a last resort. The tub was amazing, it even has a surface skimmer! There are 6 jets and they are easily interchangable and customizable. I'm even working on a plan to add a gas heater to the tub.
The last reort I spoke of is an old flame who still carries a torch for me. My torch for her went out long ago, which can make it dificult to be around her. I want a friend no more, she wants more but will settle on being a friend. Anyways it was another loose end I had to tie up. I dont' know how many times I had to tell her that the only torch I carry now is for my current gf R. When I started spouting off wedding plans I could tell she was starting to get the picture and it all came back to why? She wanted to know why everything changed and why I'm so willing to get married now when a year ago I was against it. All I can say is maybe I grew-up.
Everything happens for a reason. If I had never dated Mel, I can honestly say I might not have dated R. It was my expereince with Mel that made me more accepting of dating a single mom. Dating a single mom isn't always a bed of roses there are certain things you have to get used to, and you lose certain freedoms. However, you do gain some new freedoms that you never expected either.
So where does that leave Mel? During my short time with her I think I helped open her eyes to new approaches to parenting. I also motivated her to finally do something with her life (she's pursueing an education now).
I had a huge interesting conversation with Rob at 2 in the morning, just after Mel left my place. It was great, he informed me about "the Naked Arciologist" and how Jesus may have just been a student of the messiah, and Jean de Batiste might have been the true messiah. I think some of those deep conversations hit me more as I went to bed and really reflected on the past few years. I've also been meaning to hang out with Rob for sometime but school keeps getting in the way, so this was another loose end.
On a broader scale, I've been running into people I know EVERYWHERE! I've been stumbling into old friends and relations on a continuous basis up here. It's like I'm having one final conversation with them in person before we all go out into the black.
Wow aren't blogs theraputic LOL!
peace JB
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