A life changing weekend

It really has been truely a life changing weekend.

For those of you that know me, I have been interested in hot tubs for about 6 years now and I have finally gathered enough funds, found the perfect deal and gained all the supporters I need to make it happen. I am going to buy a Softsider hot tub (6person).

I got to go see my gf that night with a great big smile on my face and a feeling that all was well. I felt her love last night as we cuddled on the couch we just couldn't seem to get close enough. I had to be up early the next day because my parents were comming to Regina (on a whim). They're early risers (meeting them at 9am) and I am not (I have basically all night classes).

I had a great day with my parents and I have missed them so much! My dad RARELY comes to the city ever so it was definately a treat to see him. When I met them my itinerary was this:
Chapters: meeting point and tea

Wal-mart:to buy a cheap computer for mom

Mr.Lube: lots of work done to the van (saved us ooodles of $$$ though)

Aware House Book store:mom needed some reading material

Don's Photo: Pick up developed film for my bro

McNally's Tavern: Lunch and a pint (a jam session was taking place buncha people playing some sweet Irish folk musice fiddles and guitars...simple amazing)

Wet and Wild Hot Tubs: to show my parents the new purchase and arrange for shipping

London Drugs: where we found a better computer than the wal-mart model

Wal-Mart (east): return crappy computer

Rhonda's: to drop off film to be returned to my bro

Chapters to pick up my car

All-in-All 8 hours (9-5) it was a busy day

But all was not well today: Rhonda had been very depresed since this morning. She misses me...at least that's what she says. There's definately something wrong underneath it all. She didn't want to touch me or hug me good-bye even though I won't see her for awhile. So something is definately up. Why the sudden down swing though? Last night all was well?
I guess maybe I just don't understand women at all.

I just happened to be reading her blog...and by the sounds of it I can expect to be single in the next few days you can check for yourself by heading to Rhonda's page or you can read the highlight I have cut from it:

Quoting Rhonda: "I can see what I can't do now, which is maintain a relationship. I want to be fiddle numero uno... which isn't fair to any man. My family and friends have dwindled even when I try to nurture them..."

What can I say I'm pretty broken up over this development After all I have pretty much based a large portion of my life and future on our relationship such as:

-interning in Carlyle to be closer to her
-including her in the canoe trip
-planning to move in together
-being able to settle down a little and start a home and family
-knowing that I've found the person I want to spend my life with

What can I say I guess she's dissatisfied with being second fiddle to school (even though it's only a few more months till I'm done in Regina).
When is it time to leave a relationship:
bottom line: when your needs aren't being met

I guess I can't provide the close-ness and being-thereness. So my bird is going to fly. Flushing my current life plan into the sewers.

I dont' know the reality still hasn't set in yet. It probably wont' till I change my internship placement not sure where to go exactly...maybe I'll go there anyways. My bro lives out there and I DO have a cabin to live at.

Whatever, at any rate I love that girl and she will be missed dearly. I truely did give her a piece of my soul.

Peace
JB