Update

So I've made some decisions in the past few weeks and I've had some tough calls to make even in the last few days.

First of all....I'm not going overseas. I'm not ready yet and I don't have my affairs in order so it's not going to happen. This means I'll be staying in the burn for some time and subbing most likely. But I'm cool with that so it's no big deal.

I thought I was going to be buying a new vehicle right quick but I've decided not to. The payments I could probably make, but the support costs (plates, and gas per month) are almost as much as the payments themselves so I will be holding onto my Black Beauty for another year most likely while I pay down some loans. I'm a bit disappointed because I really would like something new but oh well I still have like 4 years to take advantage of my grad bonus.

I've been subbing an awful lot lately. There is a demand for subs, especially in the rural areas, which will probably be my bread and butter next year.

That's all for now
Demoncrush

What the @#$% is wrong with the nursing profession?

Ok so curiousity got the best of me and after 2 months, I decided to read up on my Ex's blog. After reading some of her March posts I was a bit pissed off that such a "caring" profession doesn't care about their own. I mean Jeebus lives are on the line and so many of them have their heads sooooo far up their asses they are basically giving themselves a scalp enema and shitting all over what the profession stands for. Yeah my ex has her faults but seriously as a nurse fairly new to a ward she should have the support of her co-workers and superiors. I know she had issues out at her previous job but this is riddiculous because as I said....LIVES ARE ON THE LINE.

In my profession the new learn from the experienced. New teachers bring fresh ideas from the university while veterans bring the experince and Wisdom. Sure not everyone gets along but we all have the same common goal and finding the easiest/best way to accomplish it what we strive for. Now I'm not trying to talk up my profession but it certainly has a more colegial atmosphere than what nursing seems to have.

Reflection on life and death

OK so on Friday I found out that a friend of mine was killed in a horrible car accident. It didn't dawn on me just who she was until today though...when the whole story started to add up. Blue Mustang...worked at a daycare, hasn't seen her parents in a few months...wait a minute I know this girl...fairly well. Though I'm not exactly sad or crying about it ( I didn't know her that well), I can't help but think about all the memories it digs up. The last conversation I had with her was on MSN about why she shouldn't take her car to a certain garage for fear of her being ripped off. I just feel a bit weird erasing her name and number from my phone. I was thinking about deleting her name from MSN messenger but I might hold onto it maybe...I don't know why exactly. Maybe because it shows how she left her mark on the world, and she won't be forgotten...for a while. I think I'm going to put all my passwords in a safe place where people will find it in the event of my passing. I think I would like whoever handles my affairs to at least send a mass e-mail to all the people to let them know. Maybe that's a bit morbid...but I haven't had a name to erase off my MSN list due to death. I suppose it would have happened eventually (lets be honest) but I just wasn't sure when.

Both her and her car both gone in an instant...which makes me appreciate all the things I do in life and why I need to do more, and be with the people that I like the most more often. I need to go on the canoe trip this summer, I need to do some serious traveling in my life. Who knows maybe those things will be my death...but if so then what kind of life would I have in the alternative? Sitting around in a basement...you call that living? At least I'm in a profession that nurtures life.

peace,
DemonCrush

How often do you just go out on a limb?

That is the question I pose of my gentle readers. Tonight I was bored, been in all week and I just want to go to the bar and have some drinks. However, my regular drinking team which involves a pair of truckers has to work in the morning. So I gave a chance and I ended up going for a beer with Kristy G. at the KG. Her and her friends...while somewhat attractive...could not keep my attention. The KG wasn't keeping their attention so they dragged me to the Royal. Of course one must remember a flock of girls can't ever go to the bathroom alone. I ended up being ditched several times by them for this on-going migration and I got bored and wandered off. I ended up running into people who I more or less knew of...but beyond names and the occasional meeting don't know from a hole in the ground. However 2 of them are people who picked up me and Jeremy way back in the fall (I believe I may have blogged about it a few months back).

Anyways, the little group of us gathered in the only room you can have a conversation without screaming at the person next to you. There I ran into L. Cole and a pile of other people I knew but didn't and Laila's friends were there too. It was certainly odd but it was fine I didn't mind the company because they weren't boring. We had an ice fight, that was on-going and well it was just plain fun. Left a hell of a mess but meh. I decided I had to stay sober for this trip.

"No, booze would be a bad thing tonight", my mind was telling me.

I did head outside after the ice fight for a small 420 session. While outside this really, drunk guy (who was passing out in the bar earlier...it was hilarious...people taking pictures and shit with him...). He had a bit of a slurish accent and he could barely stand or talk for that matter. He just leaned on a truck staring at the ground and a little trail of puke that rolled under someone's Chevy. Myself and another guy tried to get some information out of him but to little avail. He was some kind of screwed up, but when asked what drugs he was on he kept saying they weren't his thing. Surely an out-of towner. He wore a wool cap with ear flaps and buttons all over it and Kaki's that a few splatters on them (maybe something he stepped in HAHA).

After the cigs were all out and our poor attempt at interrogation (next time I'm the bad cop) we went back into the frenzy. The bar was packed before, but now it was Paaaaaaaaacked! Literally sliding room only. I was trying to get by some people and I ended up half falling and then flopping into an empty and sitting across from me when I looked up is my brother with a dumbfounded face.

"what are you doing here?" he asked.

"I....really don't know...." I honestly couldn't think of a good reason to be there.
We chatted a bit, he tried to sick a cougar on me but I already know just to play dead and they leave you alone. It was at that point I just knew I needed to get out of there it was too much. Too many people for me if was after all Thursday night and the next day is good Friday.

I ran into the 2 gals that had picked me and Jeremy up earlier in the year. They wanted to go to a party and invited me along and I decided it couldn't be any worse than this. I was pleasantly surprised it was! The 'party' was at Touque's who I know from just living in Weyburn all my life but again I have never been formally introduced. It was a good meeting I like the guy. He showed me lots of fishing trip pictures from up north, which reminded me that the canoe trip is coming up (woo-hoo). We were there for a while, and this nice blond girl was obviously taking a shine to me and she suggested we all go for a drink. By the time we drop her friend and her guy off at their place, last call has already been given. So she turns around and heads back to her car. Leaving me and Toque staring at each other...knowing that the other is thinking of pursuing the girl. I wanted to go...he even offered her to me. I don't know why I turned her down, I was sober, that might have made a difference. Something inside of me said I could do better. That might make me arrogant but meh. Not only that but I also felt like sleeping alone.

So I walked to my car right outside the KG and went home. Then I decided to blog about it. Sorry if it's been a long boring post but inspiration strikes when we least expect it. It certainly will be memorable.

Demon.

Monthly update

Sorry all, I just don't get to this as often as I would like to.

Here's the scoop:

1. I'm not sure I"ll have a teaching job come fall
2. I do like teaching though
3. Cabin party a no-go this summer....It's my call I've made it...not going to happen sorry small gatherings of a few people yes. But I'm not having more than 6 people out at a time sorry.
4. Weighing out my job options maybe I can find a non-teaching job to use my degree with.
Maybe I'll head overseas once I get my passport together and go teach ESL. I'm thining of joining the RCMP maybe but it wouldn't be right away maybe a year from now after some physical and discipline training. I don't know such is the stress of living life in a constant state of flux. Some days I think it would be nice to own my own home and have the stability of a steady permanent job. Oh well, c'est le vie.

Another lovely day in Regina

Hey all, what a treat you get 2 blogs in one week!

So let's see what did I do today. I got up, had breakfast with L, and B. I met with a friend Kar and we sat around BSing and watched some survivorman and Mantracker (both excellent shows).

I also managed to land a date for the evening with a fine young lady. That's probably all I'm going to mention about that because I'm going to mention less about the ol' personal life from now on.

Today during breakfast I was having a conversation with Ryan about: Should people who want to have children have to write an exam and be a registered parent in order to raise their children? I think so!

Some people will argue: What about human rights...how are you going to legislate this...Where does religion fall into this...

Well first of all. I've worked in enough messed up homes to know right now that there should be some sort of mental/emotional prerequisit to being a parent other than just putting a penis into a vagina.

As for the charlie church...there is no abortion to discuss...the parent will just have the child taken at the hospital or clinic or whenever it is discovered that the child shouldn't be there. Of course a provision would be in place to give the parent a few months to study and get their license.

I dont' have time to go into all the facets like what about if the wife has her license but not the husband. Or what about immigrants, homosexual couples, First Nations etc... I dont' know I'm openning up a dialogue to those interested in discussing it.

Back to the blog

Here I am everyone I decided to pick the blog back up after a long absence. I have some things to talk about. I'm a bit jaded over my job but I'm enjoying it not too badly. I'm single and enjoying that too but I am certainly looking. I deleted a few posts because some crazy person left some shitty comments on them and I started moderating my comments so not just anyone can leave one....at least not as annonymous. I just spent $700 on my car brakes and cooling system...it sucks but it still beats buying something new. I went to a teachers convention and that was ok not too shabby learned alot about financial planning for my future. Get rid of all debts first before I start to save for my future not a bad plan I'm down with that. I don't have much else to say other then I'll be in Regina for a few days hopefully hanging out with people I don't get to see very often. yeah sorry boring update but it's better than nothing...oh well I guess I have a story to tell...

I may have wasted one of those wishes that you might have in your lifetime on icecream. I was at the grocery store....sent to pickup some Vanilla, and I was looking in one cooler and I saw some orange sherbet and I thought MMMMM.....I would love to get some of that...but I was sent to get Vanilla and I don't have money for both...I wish that they made a vanilla and sherbet combo....and low and behold in the next cooler there it was Orange Sherbet and Vanilla Ice cream....TOGETHER! I should have wished for a million dollars...oh well I'm still happy with my Ice cream.

1st day of school

Well, it would have been nice to have gotten paid for it, but no such luck.
I spent my first day getting re-aquainted with the staff, and some students, but spend most of my most of my morning setting up my 'office' or work space. Trying to find a decent computer that will do what I need it to do, then finding a network card from another computer and installing it, moving boxes bere, there, everywhere. Once I was finally settled in I tried my best to get down to work but I was beat and I had a pile of teachers to talk to. But there are several positive notes. I won't have to make a year plan for 2 of the 4 classes I'll be teaching YAY!!! andI have a semi-private bathroom right behind my desk.

If things work out for me I think this will be a fantastic job.

In other news, I REALLY really miss Kristie and have since she left I can't wit to see her again!

peace
demon

Limbo

Well I finally can relate to something that Rhonda dealt with about this time last year. That limbo between work and university life. I can remember how stressed out she was and well I"m bloody well there myself. All this waiting around knowing full well that I'm going to have a real job and a decent paycheque to myself soon is sweet! I honestly cannot wait for that, as the bills are seriously piling up. It's going to be a fun game of catch up for awhile.

Some people have informed me that I need to start planning a stag for one of my best friend's wedding. The idea of Vegas for a weekend has been rolled around and well I think that would be sweet! But still I'm not 100% sure I would want to do that, though I will potentially have the money by then. Oh well we'll see I guess.

I drained and am in the process of filling my hot tub today. I figured I would take advantage of the warm weather and do it today then not have to worry about it till end of March/start of April some where in there.

Anyways I will end this post here.
LAter
Demon

Merry Decemberween to one and all!

Well it's been awhile since I have posted and I will say that I was treated fairly good by Santa this year, no complaints in that department. We had to have xmas on the 26th due to my mom's job but it really wasn't a big deal to me. We didn't get together with extended family as much this year. It was kinda nice to have no place to be on xmas day, or Boxing day.

Anywasys, I've been spending my time clearing the basement of shit so I can actually live there. My brother is being a prick and won't let me move in with him, so I have no choice but to dig out my basement and find an area to live/work/hangout in. Not an easy task but I'm up for the challange.

But yeah other then that, I havn't been up to too much
Later
Demon

Apples and Oranges

That's been my day today comparing schools that I've been in. Manor School gets an A+ in my books Stoughton well it needs improvement. But anyways....

I was drinking with the staff sargent for the RCMP detachement, when she told me that I should look into becoming a member. I said you're crazy, I'm the wrong sex and wrong color. She said I would be in like sin because they are doing a HUGE recruitment drive and I already have a degree. It would mean 6 months in the depot (basic training essentially) then that's it I would be off. After 5 years of being a Constable I guess you would be looking at $70,000 a year. Well I would need almost 2 degrees and 10 years of service to get that as a teacher. So I'll be honest when I say I'm actually considering it.

Demon

5 to go! AND group gathering!

Ok so I haven't blogged all week but there's some news. I've been offerred the job in Stoughton, and I think I'm going to take it. I've spent some time out there and well it's a different world from where I come from all those hormones flying around in full force. (my area would be grades 5-8).

So yeah I just spent my week in Stoughton and the Carlyle high school and boy do I ever miss my kids from grade 4. They miss me too I went back for a lunch and any of them who saw me ran up and hugged me. It was kinda neat.

Anyways There will be a group gethering on Dec 23rd at the INN @ 7:30 Be there or be square.
This is in cancellation of Pilot's party. A bar is more neutral ground. It's informal and we'll probably be there for a few hours.

Sad but hilarious

Ok, so as you all know I live in the stix, rural Sask, small town Saskatchewan. I have beared witness to one of the saddest events that can occur in a child's life, but I've never laughed so hard when I heard it. One of my students came to me today and said that her and her parents were out looking for their dogs that ran away....4 days ago. They were last seen the previous day out at Cannington, which means that their dogs ran away...and it took 3 days! LOL wow, needless to say she laughed but she didn't think it was as funny as I thought it was. So there you have it cliche small town living. Heh heh gotta love the prairies.

peace
Demon

The results are in!

Well my final evaluation went in today and on a scale of 0-5, 5 being outstanding, I got a 4 overall which is a VG or Very Good. Needless to say, I'm absolutely thrilled and every ounce of my being is jumping for joy. It's pretty hard to contain. So I'll give a quick WOOOOOOOOOOO-Fricken-HOOOOOOOOOOOO!

As the saying goes: "give credit where credit is due", Here's my thank-you to all the people who've helped me get through this chapter in my life.

Mom and Dad: Thanks for being my moral, and financial support, and always being there to celebrate my victories and help me through any loses.

Rob and Krisite: Thanks for taking me in during my last semester of classes. It was a blast and will be very memorable experience for me.

Rob and Kat: For telling me that when you have children you'll seek me out so I can teach them. It meant alot.

Kara and Tabi: For being my insanity and for getting me through most of my education classes and projects (not that I remember any of them LOL!)

Laila Paul: For being a great roomate and sister I never had.

Kim and Steve: for making my summers between semesters much more interesting.

Jason Holland: for being one of the only other guys in my section who was always willing to chat, party, and also for being the first person to even talk to me on day one.

Melanie V.: For helping me with projects, resource gathering, and stress relief.

Jeremy: For always being a critical eye and offering an alternate perspective on things.

Jessica Lapoint: For banding together with me and our rag-tag band of would-be teachers to conqueor EPSY, as well as, being an idea factory, and my sympathetic ear during the last 4 months.

Dr. Stephen Bend: for always finding time to lend me your rocks.

Nicole Steele: For always being patient and being an awesome EPS partner

Mandy Chytyk: For being one of the coolest people in I met during my time in education. We've had some excellent debates!

Cannington Manor: for being the best job I've EVER had

Colleen: For being the best Co-op teacher I could have hoped for

Carlyle School: For being a warm, friendly, inviting, and welcoming place I hope I can return someday.

I might have missed some people because it's late, so if I did, feel free to bring it to my attention. You have my thanks...

And now on the flip side of thanks I can finally say SCREW YOU to all the people that didn't think I could do it: (I understand it's a little immature but damn it, I think I've earned the right!)

SCREW YOU: Former faculty advisor who wouldn't support me.
SCREW YOU: Former Co-op teacher who rolled over for her.
SCREW YOU: Mrs. Z my grade 4 teacher who said I wouldn't amount to anything.
SCREW YOU: Rhonda for undermining my confidence all summer.
SCREW YOU: Select bunch of former classmates who thought I would be the one to fail.
SCREW YOU: Mrs. J who always made me feel like less of a person from grade 8 on.
SCREW YOU: Faculty of Social Work for not accepting me to your program in Regina or Saskatoon (your loss!)
SCREW YOU: Canadian Tire Guy who always made me feel inferior for not having the newest tools.

If there's anyone I missed who should have made this list please let me know so I can find a picture of them and throw darts at it.

Ok sorry for the long and sappy post but I thought all these people deserved some recognition.
peace
Demon

I love Bacon!!!

Oh bacon how do I love thee let me count the ways....
Yeah I decided I would celebrate my love affair with Bacon on my blog. Vegan's and Veggies might not approve but meh you're truely missing out.

18 days left folks...

My weekend

After feeling like crap all week I decided to get the hell out of this place and head for home to Weyburn. Where I went for coffee with Ryan, and cleaned part of my basement, as well as, got the xmas tree up, lit and decorated. I also watched Logan's Run a fantastic Sci-Fi movie from '76. The special effects were definately dated, but the premise of the movie is excellent, and interesting. I definately suggest renting it (or buing it from the bargain bin). I had planned on watching it with Ryan last night but for the first time ever my car wouldn't start...it had me worried so I assumed the worst and began looking at new cars. NEW CARS ARE TOO EXPENSIVE! Especially the foreign ones. For a Toyota Yaris with A/C and a decent warranty I would pay close to $430/month
for a VW diesel with A/C and base warranty it's close to $450/month. Ford has a pretty good deal on the new Focus with A/C and heated seats for $260/month. Shit as much as I hate the idea, I might go American when I go to buy new. I think I might look for a new car in Jan 2008. I'm pretty sure I can just make some simple repairs to my Swift and it'll last a few more years.

After Weyburn I drove to Manor in shitty blizzard, lots of cars in the ditch around Arcola, as well as, a few accidents. couldn't drive faster than 60KPH. Fun Fun Fun...I love winter (sarcasm).

Demon

23 days and counting

Ok so today was my first day back at school since I have been sick, but I only managed half the day (the morning in particular) before my voice started to give out. So I took the afternoon off, and I might have to the same tomorrow, but at least I'm back. I'm hoping by friday that I will be able to go a full day.

So I am counting down the days till I'm done, and it includes weekends so really I only have 17 school days left before I'm done, and I'll be spending at least 10 of those days in other schools or classrooms, which brings me to some good news...............

Stoughton school might be hiring me to work in a grade 7-8 class. It would be a half-time position with lots of subbing on the side to keep me busy and rolling in some dough. There's also the possibility of a full time position in the fall perhaps. So that's the latest on that front.

I don't know I have nothing to complain about today really so I'm going to leave it at that
peace
demon

Why I always assume the worst

It's easy, if I assume the worst then I don't have to be surprized if it is the worst, and if it's not so bad then that makes it all the better.

My Health especially has been a concern of mine in the last 4 months a few things have concerned me and I of course ASSUMED the WORST...but I have found it's not as bad (after visiting the doc each time).

Take my recent trip to the doc. I have a sore throat and can barely speak, so I thought oh Jeebus laryngitis, but I was also caughin a bit of blood every now and then as well, after doing some internet searching I thought it might even be throat cancer. Of course after visiting the doc it wasn't nearly as bad as I had once thought. Anywhoo long story short, I have tonsilitis which sucks ass still, but hey it beats throat cancer right?

so a few days off, and then back to the disease factory
peace and health
demon

Photocontest

Finally got around to this enjoy.

Pilot's Meme

Ok so I can't find my firewire to participate in Rob's photocontest at the moment. So I guess I'll thorw down my celebrity F@#%! list. Yeah a fair amount of them are from the Wheadonverse but meh that's what I like.


1. Lucy Liu
2. Angie Everheart
3. Uma Thurman
4. Holly Marie Combs (chick from charmed)
5. Alison Hannigan
6. Sarah Michelle Gellar
7. Charisma Carpenter
8. Morena Baccarin
9. Amy Acker
10. Jewel Saite